“Break my heart for what breaks Yours…”
Long ago, I prayed that God would break my heart for what breaks His. In fact is was probably close to exactly 18 years ago, give or take a week or two. In the midst of a season where I was seen as the strong one, the one that could handle anything, that prayer came from a place of feeling so weak and inadequate. I was on a missions trip, with these people that I saw as better than myself. Those who were more talented and eloquent and outgoing. I was an expert as feeling less than. I know now that in those days there were positive things that happened and I am sure there are things that God was able to use me to do. I could not see how God would use me but I knew that I needed to go. While I was there, the only thing I could pray, or well the first thing I could pray was that prayer about breaking my heart for what breaks His.
In that moment of prayer, my view of the world was radically transformed. No longer did I see things as they appeared. I began to see the heart, to look beyond facades and into the truth of who people truly were. It is probably the very thing that brought me to right where I am. I have now finished my Ph.D. in Psychology. My heart beats for the least of these. One verse that guides me is “whatever you have done unto the least of these you have done unto Me” (Matthew 25:40). My drive is for seeing lives transformed, which I believe is the very heart of God.
Which brings me to today, I am currently on my way to the Democratic Republic of Congo to serve those who are there. To offer what God has given me. To see how God is transforming lives for the good.